For years, monotheistic faith has been little more than an intellectual curiosity for me -- something I analyzed in academic contexts and, in all honesty, mocked in many other settings. Until one day in February 2018, when I found myself unexpectedly saying a prayer. I don’t remember what I said. What I do remember is feeling ridiculous in that moment for talking to a God I didn’t believe in. The next morning, though, I awoke without the crushing sensations of anxiety and depression that I’d been battling every day, morning to night, for far too long (a struggle I tried to hide as much as possible). In its place was an ineffable radiance. Baffled, and intrigued, I started incorporating prayer into meditations I had been practicing daily for several years. The ensuing prayer experiences in meditation and surrounding events led me to become a follower of Jesus -- an outcome that would have been unimaginable to me before I awoke that morning.
Sounds of Seeking is inspired by those events and the experiences that continue in my prayer life today. This composition project brings together the sounds of people’s prayers (sung and spoken in many different languages), and offers musical meditations in response. The collections of prayers and musical meditations will continue to grow over time, so please revisit often.
I hope that this project will encourage others who are seeking, no matter where they are in their journey.